may '21: collection

[grainfall]

set up dreamwidth about a week ago and given that june has just started i thought i'd collate a bunch of quotes/photographs/etc that i consumed this month and really liked! like a little personal media dump

 

ok i didn't really start consciously saving the things i liked until really late this month but i think i'll probably start doing so for june. read a lot of really good svt fic this month. got into writing svt (godspeed). please forgive the formatting because i haven't quite got the hang of dreamwidth yet T__T 

“Right,” Minghao says. He pushes the empty dish away from him, and the metal chopsticks balancing on the rim shiver in response. There’s another pause, but Jun waits this one out, letting the silt drift back to the bottom. There are a lot of things he gets wrong, but at least when it comes to him and Minghao: he knows how far out he has to tread, to be met halfway.

— grain by grain, we made this meal by miissedappointments

Seokmin knows he’s inelegant, like a baby deer learning how to walk. He doesn’t have the kind of clever tact Jeonghan does. But it’s never seemed to matter before.

He feels it burning at the back of his throat, too, that not-quite-irritation. That desire to pull Jeonghan into the light.

— whenever you're lost by sunburst

"The trying is essential. Like it doesn't matter if what you say makes sense. It only matters that you say it and you mean it."

"You sing about this all the time."

"I don't write the songs," Seokmin says, throat dry.

Mingyu flicks his forehead. "But you still know the words."

But isn’t desire always the same, whether the object is present or absent? Isn’t the object always absent? —This isn’t the same languor: there are two words: Pothos, desire for the absent being and Himéros, the more burning desire for the present being.

— A Lover's Discourse, Roland Barthes

The sun is steadily rising. In an hour, Seungkwan will wake up, and a sudden feeling presses down Vernon’s chest, the urge to cry overwhelming as he sees the Jeju skies illuminate the tiny space of home he had sat himself down on. His fingers are sticky, and the wind brushes by his cheeks. He smells of tangerines and distant flowers and he imagines, for a second, telling Seungkwan, Let’s get married. Let’s live here someday and spend the rest of our lives together. And we’ll adopt all the cats and dogs and children you want. And I’ll let you live your life, as long as I get to live my life with you in it.

— simple by daisuga

this video of junhao going back to china for an awards show and a carat shouting "文俊辉欢迎回家" (wen junhui welcome home). absolutely heartrending.

for music my friend introduced me to heat waves (stripped back) by glass animals — very lovely song. been listening to this on repeat to write my wip.

have a bunch of ambitious goals (writing-wise) for june because it's my summer break month so by all means i should have a ton of time to work on my wips....but historically i've actually been less productive during breaks BUT i am determined to change that. switching from nct fandom/ficdom to svt fandom/ficdom has felt like a 360 degree lifestyle shift but has also made me less reliant on external validation for motivation to write, and a lot of my current svt wips are things very dear and personal to me so i'm looking forward to finishing them. (also if i'm being honest i did start using dreamwidth just to have somewhere to store my incessant ramblings. it feels like shouting into the void)

summer's here. hope you all have a lovely month :")